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Artist | Professional | Varied
United States
Current Residence: Columbus, Ohio
Favorite genre of music: Goth / Doom Metal
Skin of choice: pale
Favorite cartoon character: Daria
Personal Quote: Meh...


Thu Sep 18, 2014, 10:22 PM

Every have the feeling that things are spiraling out control and that feeling of free-fall in in your gut and won't go way?

noun: premonition; plural noun: premonitions
a strong feeling that something is about to happen, especially something unpleasant.

I've had some unfortunate dealings with premonitions over the course of my life.
I've always had a strong sense of déjà vu, sometimes even able to start predicting what's about to happen and pinpoint when things change. It's never been accompanied with that sense of dread.... They tend to hit me like that hot rush of needles on the skin and brain of "oh shit, I know something just went very wrong and I don't know if I can fix it and I think it's my fault" Yeah, that awful feeling is what's not leaving me alone right now. I got news that a really good job opportunity passed me by this morning and now I can't shake this sense of dread. I felt it even before I opened the damn email. Just like I knew before walking into the last job I had, only to be told the store was being closed. I can think back on many insistence over my life... the thought "oh gods, he has a kid" before Jer told me about his daughter, the sense of dread at Vince having tummy surgery that nearly killed him, each time before the car acted funny and then left me stranded. These are just the ones in recent memory....Why the hell can I predict the lottery or something useful!!??

School may no longer be an option as they are now messing with my financial aid and trying to get me to pay out of pocket for the balance of some quarters. Which I was told would be balanced out by the quarters I had a surplus from my financial aid...turns out that was a bold faced lie. And I'm still having issues with that one professor, even though I'm doing my damnedest to meet her wildly off standards.

Right now I just want this feeling to pass without any further bad coming my way...

  • Mood: Nervous


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shamus-celtic-heart Featured By Owner 5 days ago
so this year a big group of us went to the Faire for my birthday tradition. one of my good friends was making eyeballs over my shoulder and I turned around and saw it was you. I got all flustery and they tried to get me to walk up and say "hi" needless to say I chickened out...>.>
BelovedUnderwing Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Professional General Artist
Bwahahahaha! *achem*, there is no real need for that, but thank you for telling me, you've defiantly lifted my sprites today! Your birthday, eh? Did you and the friends have a good time and get stuffed on faire food and laugh yourselves silly all day? Which weekend was it at faire?
shamus-celtic-heart Featured By Owner 5 days ago
we had a lovely time as always. 3rd year of tradition. it was romance weekend, the weekend before the 30th of September.

I mostly got flustered because walking up and going "oh hey all those years ago you walked into the PetSmart in Polaris with a DA shirt on? yea I was your cashier" crying out loud I visit the Knights every year and still get tongue tied.
glad I made your day however :)
BelovedUnderwing Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Professional General Artist
That is great to hear! The 30th of September is my Mom's birthday as well!!

While I am flattered as can be, faire is just the place for that kind of introduction or reintroduction! I've had several peoples come up and mention dA or meeting me outside of faire, over the years. I also get a bunch of adults wanting to introduce me to their wee ones that have been looking for "the fairy" since they got there. I had one little girl want to take me home and keep me!

So next year say HI!!! We'll get you a cider and have a good time celebrating your B-day!!
monokene Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2014  Student Artist
Wow, your costumes are stunning:squee: 
BelovedUnderwing Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014  Professional General Artist
:D Thank you!!
Lil-Neko-mimi Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I absolutely love your work! The clothes, the jewelry, everything! I wish I was talented enough to make some of those outfits, but then again fabric and I don't get along. lol Yasuko Takasu (Fangirling) [V1] 
BelovedUnderwing Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2014  Professional General Artist
Aww :aww: Thank you very much!
Anytime and love your Customize clothing work :) 
NalinaRoseStudio Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Professional Artisan Crafter
:squee: Thanks so much for the Added to my devWatch! . Love your costumes!
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